Guess how much I’ve written?
I’m not telling you. I should start doing it though. Oh, that just gave away the fact that I’ve written nothing, didn’t it!? Whoops! Okay, so I haven’t started yet. I really need a better idea. I keep over analysing the one I have in my head right now, which is probably the wrong thing to do, because if I just started writing, it would be good, or if not good, it would at least be a start. Right? Right.
Anyway, I’ve been doing lots of on the sidelines writing, you know, otherwise called “roleplay”. Which is terrible of me, but I can’t say no. Even though, one of my tag lines is “Just Say No”. You’d think I’d take my own advice and say no, don’t you? But I DON’T! And do you know why? A lot of reasons actually, most of them revolve around the fact that I seriously love creating stories with other people, and that, I have some really amazing storytellers amongst my small group of players. It’s really nice. The last couple of weeks in particular, have been extremely fun. I’m very lucky to be surrounded by people who care and who want to write with me.
It’s difficult to explain the concept of online roleplay to people who don’t do it. It seems like an odd thing to do, and more than that, kind of nerdy. I’m quite proud of my nerdiness though, so I will admit, roleplaying online is all kinds of nerdy. Depending on what sort of roleplay you do. Mine isn’t nerdy at all. No, really…I don’t have any nerdy characters, although, I do have a spot open…perhaps that’s what he could be! I like that idea. Wait, I guess a couple of them are slightly nerdy on the side. I’m sidetracking myself. Do you know, I find it really difficult to talk about roleplay without feeling like a complete computer nerd? Finethen! I give in to my inner dork. Hello internet, my name is Kelly and I am an online roleplay nerd! My skin is white and pasty and while I don’t wear glasses, I do have braces. OHMYGOD! i’m totally a computer nerd!
Actually, years and years ago, something happened to our computer, and Ollie was taking it to the shop we bought it from to get them to look at it, and some guy yelled out “COMPUTER NERD!” at him. I have to point out, the guy who yelled it? Yeah, he was in the computer store’s parking lot. I still love that! Can’t you see my husband with a computer under his arm, trudging towards the store and being assaulted by some huge rugby head – in the carpark going “computer nerd!” Maybe it’s a private joke. The truth is, we’re both fairly bad, but I apparently am worse, because I sit and write out entire character lives on this thing.
And do you know what? I totally love it. I find it utterly interesting, and I love to see other people’s characters develop, be broken and slowly piece themselves back together again. I love to see how people shift their storylines when someone else’s characters disappear, and how they spring back and find new plot twists, new drama’s, new loves and losses and triumphs and failures. We’ve got some really great storylines going right now. And even more in the works. I wish solo writing was this easy…but solo writing requires discipline and time away from the rest of the world, which I am finding incredibly difficult to turn away from right now. I totally enjoy the interactions, and the friendships I’ve made with people.
I’m thoroughly intrigued by how things manifest. By group dynamics and shifts in friendships. It’s very intense and sometimes overwhelming. I think that’s really my favourite part of online roleplay. People sharing themselves. Your writing is so very personal, your style, your ideas and your creativity. It’s all so very individual and interesting. I’ve watched people grow and change and find their creative voices and I can’t help feeling really good about what they’re creating, and what they’re helping me create too. Roleplayers are a strange and interesting group of people. Once they’ve found a group they fit with, they stay, and they’re very loyal, for the most part. They’re also very serious. But more than that, they’re totally amazing. They make me laugh every day. They are some of my very best friends in the whole world. And funnily enough, they’re all over the world…so, when I say that, it’s actually true.
Most of them, I have never even heard speak. Some of them, I’ve seen photos of. Some of them, I’ve seen via webcamera, some of them, I really wish lived closer – yes you. You! That’s right. Come over and drink tea with me! Not sleepy tea, I’ve decided, sleepy tea is the bane of my timezone existance! No more sleepy tea, no more missing afternoon naps so you can’t stay up all night with me. None of that! You must be on call for me, 24/7 because that’s how it rolls yo’. I can’t live without my daily 12 hour fix of stalkerism and harrassment. I can’t live a vile and hateful existance, without your constant praise and support. But anyway, despite that fact, I still feel like we know each other, in a way that you sometimes don’t even know the friends you do regularly have coffee with, well, apart from the ones who are willing to give you their everything. And to be fair, I do expect that of my friends. Their everything. I’m selfish and expectant that way, but in return, I’ll give you that too.